Wednesday, March 23, 2011

time is flying....

So I was listening to an old mix CD from my friend Taylor, and it had some Nickelback songs on it, yeah yeah I know...they are not that great and always sound the same and actually a lot of their songs are about bad stuff...
but this one song had a great message. The song is called Never Gonna be Alone, and I doubt it was their purpose but it makes me think of my relationship with God. And maybe he was singing some of it to me and I to him. 

In the first verse the song talks about keeping this feeling bottled inside, even though time is flying by, you have to let the person know how much they mean to you: that is me, telling God, even though I don't always acknowledge how blessed I am and how lucky I am to have a God who loves me so much, I do know. 

Then the second verse says, "And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands, 'Cause forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you," again I am finally realizing how much I need God in my life...and he is truly the only thing I will ever need, everything else is just a bonus he is the necessity! 

Then finally, the 3rd verse is what I am trying to install in my life so much right now! Living each day for the day, not worrying about things that could happen or what I need to do, but enjoying each day as a great blessing! 

Each chorus is my God saying to me, no matter what happens he will be there. Nothing will change that, he will catch me when I fall and always love me no matter what I do! He forgives me every time I let him down, and he will always lift me up and hold me in his arms, because he is my father! He will always love me! 

I hope you can find messages like these in your everyday life..because things like this are small little signs God is everywhere in your life! 

V1: Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you.
Now I'm, wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside,
So I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...


You're never gonna be alone
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall...
You're never gonna be alone
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.


V2: And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands,
'Cause forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you,
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...


You're never gonna be alone
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world out,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.


V3: Oh!
You've gotta live every single day,
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away,
Could be our only one, you know it's only just begun.
Every single day,
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes...


Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...


You're never gonna be alone
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world out,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

I'm gonna be there always,
I won't be missing one more day,
I'm gonna be there always,
I won't be missing one more day. 

"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."-Deuteronomy 31:5, 6

Monday, March 14, 2011

I am blessed :)


So life is moving so super duper fast! But you want to know a secret?
  I am loving it and enjoying everyday! 
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But here is the thing: I have not always loved living for the day. I grew up in a family FULL of planners. 

My family likes to plan everything and way far in advance. It is probably due to the fact that we have such a huge family, and it is hard to coordinate that many people....so we have started to rely on the same traditions every year, which I love. But I sometimes wish we could go by the spur of the moment, but I know that is not likely to happen with a giant family, half of which are children. So I have learned to enjoy being the child of a planner and I was content to start my journey into being another planner...until recently...

So if you read this blog, you probably know me and my man....and if you know anything about him he is not much of a planner. I mean he will plan when it comes to his work, but he doesn't like to plan to far in advance. And when we first started dating I was not used to such a foreign concept. 
Not planning in advance, not deciding what we were going to do for Fourth Of July, next Christmas...or even the upcoming weekend! 
Crazy talk! 

But then I asked him (I always ask him a lot of questions....and am always 100% honest with him and he is with me) one day why he doesn't like planing or talking about the far future so much...and he said... because to many times the future changes for what you have "set in stone" for it, so you should just learn to live for the day and enjoy what you are being blessed with!

ok....so I don't think he said that verbatim but close enough...

And that has changed something in me (yes it may be that I am around him so much that it is inevitable to not be like that) but nonetheless I have changed. I still like to plan some things...and I hope I have rubbed off on him a little and he likes to plan a little more, but I enjoy not knowing exactly is going to happen. And I enjoy living for each day, and remembering each moment is a blessing and if you don't stop and look around and "and smell the roses"  you will miss what God has given you

I thank God for my man everyday, not only because I believe God put us in each others lives for a reason, but because he teaches me something new all the time. He has taught me to be open to new things, to open my heart, and to enjoy each moment because right now moments are what we have.

Why think of what can happen and lose focus on what is happening?
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I recently found an old WOW CD of mine (yeah I was/am the cool kid that bought the WOW CDs and the NOW ones as well) and have been listening to it quite frequently and I found this song by Natalie Grant and it just speaks so well to what I am trying to do in my life now. 
So enjoy :)

Sittin' in my room staring at the wall
Wonderin' about the meaning of it all
Why is it this thing called life
Has got me goin' crazy
So I open up your word and let it speak to me
The purpose and the plan that you've designed
Is clear to see, and I believe

Chorus:
I'm gonna live for today
I'm gonna follow in your way
I'm gonna let my little light shine
Like there's no tomorrow
I won't worry about the past
I know my future is intact
So I'll choose to live my life one way
I'm gonna live it for today

You told me not to worry
About what lies ahead
So I am gonna focus on today instead
Making every moment count and counting
Every single blessing
I'm gonna set my mind on the
Here and the Now
This is what I want my life to be about
And this is How...

Chorus:
I'm gonna live for today
I'm gonna follow in your way
I'm gonna let my little light shine
Like there's no tomorrow
I won't worry about the past
I know my future is intact
So I'll choose to live my life one way
I'm gonna live it for today


So I hope you live for the day...don't worry about what can/could happen. Focus on the blessings God has given you, because trust me there are millions of blessings in your life. 
He blesses each of us....you just have to look, some may be small, and some may be huge. 
But trust me the blessings are there! 

He knows what will happen, and if he wanted us to know everything he would have made us to be able to tell the future...but I don't know about you but I am not a gypsy lady, living in a tent with a traveling circus telling people's fortunes....I can not see the future, and frankly I don't want too. If you could see what is going to happen what fun would life be?

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have made for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not disaster, to give you a future and a hope."

Thursday, March 3, 2011

The Office....how...now I Love you!

Okay so you may not know this but I LOVE The Office! It is one of my favorite shows and I just feel so happy watching it....but it is not only due to the HIlarious content, but also what I associate the show with...now

Michael: "Would I rather be feared or loved? Um... Easy, both. I want people to be afraid of how much they love me."

You caught that now, now didn't you? Hear is the deal with the now....my freshman year of college I went on this weirdo date with a friend of a friend. We went to dinner (to be honest I don't remember where...tells you how awesome it was now doesn't) and the whole time he didn't talk to me much, so I tried to make conversation and noticed a couple sitting near us, they were in their late 70s, and I said how cute that couple was and then he said watching other people was weird and that I should keep my nose in my own business (great start) and then we went to his house to watch a movie...but he couldn't find a movie so he put in an episode of The Office....now at that time, I hadn't really gotten into The Office that much but I was looking forward to laughing at least once that night (he wasn't funny either).

Phyllis: My FAVORITE! 
"I know Sue...she's not that great. You know her husband's in a wheelchair right?"

So he put in the episode and the first funny moment he started slapping his knee laughing! Like people do to make fun of someone who laughs really hard, but he actually laughed like that. I thought it was not that big of a deal, and just let it go..but then it got worse! He started slapping MY KNEE! Just like when something funny happens or someone makes a funny joke and you *nudge* the person next to you because they are like the joke being told...or you both know someone like who the joke is about...well that is what he was doing, except slapping my knee! It was ridiculous!
                                      
Okay so it may not be that big of deal, but he was a weirdo 
guy anyway, so that was just an added downside.


Anyways, so until last year, I had always thought of that horrible date when I watched the office...but then I started watching it with my man....and now I associate The Office with my man. Who doesn't hit me when he laughs, or slaps his knee, or my knee, talks to me when we go out to eat, and people watches with me...yeah I am spoiled :) I just thought I would share this little story because there was an Office marathon on TV tonight; and it made me remember how lucky I am to have The Office in my life....and my man of course! We go so well together and I am very lucky to have in my life, he makes me smile and he makes me so happy, just like The Office! 
We complement each other...just like Dwight and Michael :)

(maybe I should have chosen Pam and Jim...
but come on Michael and Dwight are my favorite couple on the show)


Dwight:  "I have been Michael's number two guy for about five years, and we make a great team. We're like one of those classic famous teams. He's like Mozart and I'm like Mozart's friend. No, I'm like Butch Cassidy and Michael is like Mozart. You try and hurt Mozart, you're gonna get a bullet in your head, courtesy of Butch Cassidy."