BLESSED

So the today I read this article today about "How to know he's the one." (I was passing time in the library) And some of the things on the list were really silly like "does he write you love songs every week?" or "does he lay his coat on the ground for you to walk on?" But then other things were sweet and true like "does he make you feel happy?"

Also am I the only who finds asking him to lay his coat over a puddle for you to walk on a bit much? Numero One: I wouldn't want my guy to put his coat on the ground for me to walk across it would ruin his coat, and why couldn't I just walk around the puddle, and if he was just really set on being so "charming" he could just pick me and carry me across the puddle (which unless it is 6ft wide, I can step over). Number two: what kind of girl asks a guy to lay his coat over a puddle for her to walk on? 

So anyways that article got me thinking, I know my guy is the one but what are some of the reasons I know he is the one? It also led me to think of how blessed I am to have him in my life, and how happy he makes me. So I thought I would make a list of all the reasons I know he is the one....

My List of How to know He's the One:

He makes you laugh

He makes you blush

He holds your hand

He knows just how to make you smile

He calls you sweet names and no one else

He hugs you tight

He makes you feel safe

He tells you sweet things out of the blue

He gets you little things he knows you will like

He goes to your family events and smiles through it

He opens the car door for you

He pays but then will let you pay too

He lets you watch your "girlie" TV shows and pretends to watch

He likes your family (or at least pretends to)

He brings you closer to God

He makes you want to be a better person

He makes you feel good about yourself

He can make your heart skip a beat

He can make you really mad

He can look at you and you forget why you were mad

He treats you as an equal

He asks your opinion 

He is his own person

He is silly 

He is sweet

He is nice

He calls you beautiful not hott

He remembers the little things (even though you forget them sometimes)

He texts you just to say hi

He finds things he knows you will like and shares them with you

He waits to watch a movie or a TV show until you are with him

So that is just some of the things on my list of how I know my guy is the one. They are definitely not the only reasons, but they are the ones I thought of when I read that article. Just looking over that list, I am reminded of how lucky I am to have such a great guy. I am blessed beyond reason with him and I know God put my guy in my life for a reason, and I also know he made us for each other. He is the one, my special person, my other half, the PB to my J, the chicken to my waffle, the Michael to my Dwight...with him I am truly the luckiest. 

What makes you lucky? What makes you blessed? Do you have a person that makes you feel perfect? 

Do you know how blessed you are? Know that the Lord is with you and he blesses you in every aspect of your life. He has blessed each and every one of us, you just have to remember that you are blessed because the Lord your God is with you. He puts people in your life for certain reasons, he guides you and keeps you safe. He leads you down a great path. So look around, what has God blessed you with?

Psalm 121:7-8
The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

What I'm Loving Wednesday....

So I have been reading all these different posts on Wednesday where people talk about what they are loving on this Wednesday...so I thought I would give it a shot....so here goes:

I am LOVING that I am 22 days from graduation, that is only 9 days of class, three days of exams (and then weekends and non-class days). I can barely contain myself, I am sooo soo sooo excited!

I am LOVING that my relationship with God is growing so much deeper then I ever thought possible. I had always wanted a deep relationship with Him, but I didn't know how to go about it, yes prayer and reading the Bible but something that I decided to do has helped my love for my Lord to grow to a new depth. And I love that! 

I am LOVING love....yes I know it sounds cheesy, and there should be harps in the background, and a naked baby floating above my head...shoot me (and to be ironic that is what the baby would do) I can't help it. I am not just in love with a person but with life right now and especially God. I am just feeling so much love for things I never thought I would. I had always thought about falling in love, but I never knew what it was like until recently. I am in love with all types of love in my life. 

I am LOVING my crazy friends in my women's studies class. That class is probably the most random, and awkward class I have ever been in but I love it, simply because of the girls in it. Yes some of the girls are Really weird...and I mean really REALLY weird...but then there are the few that I love! They are like me, and see the weirdness going on and laugh. Some girls take that class so seriously but come on, how serious can a class about being a woman (and talking about the woman parts) be?

I am LOVING the new show Extreme Couponing. It is crazy and scares me a lot. I never want to be one of those wives that has a giant stock pile of 28 jars of spaghetti, 30 sticks of D.O. and 90 bottles of shampoo. Now I am all for coupons but it is just ridiculous! Some of these people don't even have jobs they just coupon! It is crazy...maybe if I do want to save as much money as these people and start a stockpile I can hire someone to do it for me :)

Well I hope my first "What I am Loving Wednesday" told you a little about me and was all that it could be....

(that was a weird ending and I don't know why I rhymed)

Matthew 22: 37-39 "Jesus said, "You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.' this is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'You shall love your neighbor as yourself." 

So in almost exactly a month I will be walking across the stage at Austin Peay State University and getting my Bachelor of Science degree......

those words seem so foreign coming out of my mouth....it is almost like a dream saying them except I am extremely excited and equally terrifying...if not more. I honestly can't believe it is happening, I am so ready to go out into the world and start working and living...as...an adult!

whoah!!!!!!

An adult? Me? You are kidding me right? I am not an adult! I am just a kid! I am not ready to be on my own!! I can't handle it! What if I fail? What if nothing good happens? What if I can't make anything happen? What if I fail...what if I never succeed....what if my parents are not proud of me.....what if I fail....what if I end up alone....what if no one ever loves me....what if my man isn't proud of me....what if everyone leaves.....what if my family isn't proud......what if I fail?

I told you....I am so scared! I don't know if I am ready to be on my own...okay so I won't be on my own right off the bat, but I am still terrified!!! What if I never get a job? What if all these four years are wasted? I am so scared that I will completely fail  and let down everyone that has believed in me....

I guess that is what goes through your mind when your entire world is about to change. I guess it is normal to be afraid and excited at the same time when something this big is about to happen....

I remember when I was about to start college and I was completely terrified yet so excited. I couldn't wait for the next chapter in my life...I went off to school completely on my own, most of the people I graduated with went to a different school but I chose Austin Peay because they had a broadcasting program...I didn't know anyone, plus I didn't get a roommate...I didn't have anyone, but I stayed...I was terrified, I had no clue what was going to happen, I was very afraid! And that fear helped me to be able to face the unknown....and I will never regret my decision to go off on my own. 

The next time in my life I was truly terrified was when I went out on my second date with my man. Yeah I know, usually people are nervous and scared on their first date, but to be honest, on our first date, I wasn't sure it was a date until it was over (and yes he knows...and he thinks it's funny (I think)) but when we went on our second date I remember thinking this guy is different, he is special, this is different. On our second date, we met for dinner after I got off of work, and I remember walking into the restaurant thinking just breathe....it will be no different then yesterday...but it was different, I was different. I started to see him in a different light, I started to think about him as a part of an "us" with me. Yes, during our first date, I thought about how cute he was, and funny and smart, etc. but it never hit me until I walked into our second date how scared I was. I was scared because I knew this time it was different, he might be the one, the one I had been waiting for, the man God picked out for me....and it scared me to the point where I was shaking when I saw him, my palms were sweating, and I had to concentrate on every word I would say because I had no clue what I actually was saying....but in the end it was all worth the nerves and fears, because I know he is the one...and even though I still get scared, because I have never had this before, I would never take back that fear I felt. Because it was the fear that gave me that feeling that this time was different!

And now I feel fear again, not the same fear because I believe it is different each time it materializes...this time it is fear of the unknown, of the chance that nothing will happen....fear I will disappoint those I love. Even writing those words makes my heart beat fast and my eyes water, that is probably one of my greatest fears...I would never want the ones I love to be disappointed in me..and I think with this change that is what I am most afraid of. I couldn't bear the thought of the ones I love not being proud of me, I want them to be proud of what I am doing, and I am terrified that won't happen. It is hard now to see the light at the end of the tunnel, because I don't know how this fear will help me, or what it will lead to.....

But that is when hope comes into play, hope that it will all work out. Hope that this fear will lead to another great future, hope that nothing bad will happen, hope that I will make everyone proud, hope that I won't fail! HOPE!

That is all I can ask for....HOPE!

It is hard to have hope, hard to have hope in the face of fear. But nonetheless we are called to have hope in the face of fear. Hope in our Lord, hope the he will provide for us and protect us no matter what. Sometimes we might not get the results we want, but we still have to have hope because even though we might not see what lies ahead, God does. He knows the end result and what is best for us, he knows us. 

I pray you have hope, I pray I am strong enough to have hope in the fear I am feeling....I pray that my hope never fails, and that in the end I will always know that my Lord, my God, my FATHER is there for me no matter what, offering me his unfailing love, and never ending hope! 

" For you have been my hope, O Sovereign LORD, my confidence since my youth."
Psalm 71:5

"But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him."
Jeremiah 17:7

"But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you"

Psalms 39:7

"Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." 

Romans 12:12

"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead,"

1 Peter 1:3