What I'm Loving Wednesday....

First

I am loving that my birthday is in 5 days! woop woop! But what is weird I keep forgetting it is almost my birthday. Isn't that strange...but I guess it is because this birthday is not a milestone in my life. I am just turning 22, no big deal. No flags, parades, or sky writers please. I acutally would rather not do anything big, maybe just lunch or dinner with the most important people in my life. Maybe that is my wish...just for time. Time rushes by so fast that sometimes you forget to enjoy the little moments like fixing dinner with your brother-in-law, driving in the car with your nephews, watching food network with my little brother and sister, telling my mom about my day, going to Clarksville with my dad, talking in funny accents with my sister, and laying on the couch beside my man....time flies by so enjoy the little things.

 I know I do. 

Second

I am loving that I am back in my favorite town in the world. I love White House, and could not imagine being anywhere else (right now). This is where I grew up, went to school, my family is here, and this is where I fell in love. I love White House, and I love being home. 

Third

I love that next week I get to start a great job...watching two adorable, funny, and crazy boys...my nephews! I am so excited, it won't be like babysitting because I have to actually do "real stuff" with them not just lay around the house...but it will be great. I love them both so much and I am looking forward to spending all summer with my two favorite little redheads! Being a nanny will be awesome...just call me 

what are you loving?

What I'm Loving Wednesday....

So I really Like what people are doing with the "What I'm Loving Wednesday" so I think I will join them....

First I am LOVING that my man's mom is doing better. If you didn't know she had a heart-attack last Monday and was in pretty bad shape, but now she is doing a lot better. She is still on a breathing tube, but is responding to her family, she is awake, and they think she is making great progress. God is GOOD!

Second I am loving being completely done with school! It is extremely weird, but really great at the same time. I think it is weird because I have yet to do anything and am just being a bum at my parents house...but I am working on it. I am applying to any open jobs at any news station, and I have two part time jobs for the summer that will be great. It will all work out eventually...at least that is what everyone keeps telling me. 

Third I am loving this month! So much has already happened this month and still so much....I graduated, we had my graduation party (which was amazing), my parents gave me my early birthday present, tickets to see Young Frankenstein (and yes I took my man), my birthday is in less then 2 weeks, and in that same week it will be me and my man's one year! I can't believe how the time has flown by, sometimes I still think we just started dating. I am incredibly lucky and blessed to have him in my life, I waited my entire life to find him and I thank God everyday for sending me the man of my dreams. 

What are you loving??

oh my goodness....I hope I will be okay

well tomorrow is the big day...it is crazy!!! I am graduating from college...I don't know what to say, it seems like yesterday I was moving to Clarksville all by myself to take on college and now I am leaving with a degree and maybe a bit wiser? I can't believe it is happening...it has gone by so fast...but really it still hasn't hit me yet...I am not sure when it actually will, maybe when I am getting ready........actually I think it is hitting me right now! 

My stomach is tightening, my palms are sweating I.....am.....nervous! Not nervous about tomorrow so much, I am excited about that, but I think it is more of nervous of the unsure, nervous of the what comes next? What if I never find a job...what if I am going to be one of those college graduates who just work at Mcdonalds forever!?

Okay I know I am little fast to jump to that judgement, because number one I wouldn't apply to a job at Mcdonalds unless there was absolutely NOTHING else. But that kind of stuff happens all the time right? People cant find anything in this job market and end up just working where they can find any opening. I am all for making money and providing for yourself but I want to work somewhere I will love and preferably somewhere I went to school for. I know I will be fine financially but I want to work somewhere that I have dreamed about somewhere that will make me proud to say this is my job but then what if it never happens what if I Loren become a failure, a loser, a big, fat nobody....

I guess I am just scared nothing will happen but then I need to remember that no matter what happens (or doesn't happen) I still have people who love me: my family, my man, and most of all God! I know that no matter what comes my way or bypasses me I will be okay because God is holding my hand guiding me on the right path. I will be okay....I will be okay....I WILL be okay....I will BE okay....I will be OKAY...I WILL BE OKAY!

 (if I say it enough it will happen right?)

I don't think I can write anymore because I am not sure what exactly to say...because I am speechless, well not speechless just not sure how I am feeling right now. But trust me after tomorrow it will all spill out and believe it or not I will be fine, I will survive, I will move on, I will close this chapter of my life...

I will be okay! 

Proverbs 3:5: "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding."